Monday, September 11, 2006 Y
i woke up at 5+pm .
i dreamt of him ;
dreamt tt all these nv happen at all ;
he was still beside me, huggin me telling me to go bath ;
was goin his hse then to his NS check-up ;
then i suddenly woke up .
finding him .
but to vaild , he's nt there .
i cry to myself .
i miss him , i really miss him like hell .
i miss him so much and yet i gt to surpress it .
my once "deardear" has died from my heart .
he won't be back forever .
ahtong jus come my hse to get his things back .
he say he've gotta himself a gf already . ha .
it's less than 24 hrs ?
his heart gt no space for me .
kiki only will miss the past him , nv the now him .
my once dear dear is dead , dead frm my heart forever .
and our 10 months will become our wonderful memories ,
his unsusal
niaoniao ;
his smell ;
his slpy look ;
his hug ;
his kiss ;
he farting on my face ;
we go fishing ;
the way we play maple ;
the way he stroke my hair at changi tt day ;
we sayin lame jokes ;
the song "cold cold heart" ;
he play piano ;
etc etc etc ....
so many .. really ..
i won't force myself to forget .
i'll jus live with it .
missin the past him . (:
now i knw y some ppl say writing blog is healthy .
is cos u can say everything tt u bottle up inside ur heart
and jus &^*%$^%$&(&%^%$&^( inside here .
tt's nice , im feeling so much better already (:
{{ 9/11/2006 06:48:00 PM -
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